Now you’re being sent check-up emails by your advisors, ensuring you took the right classes to keep you on the list to walk the stage, you’re wearing your class ring, you’re ordering your cap and gown, and thinking of big and scary things like finding a job and beginning your career.
All of the sudden, the rush of your first college party, the stress of staying up late to study for exams, and the worry you felt about meeting new friends when you moved into your dorm just isn’t looking that intimidating anymore.
Insurance, credit checks, mortgage, benefits, retirement…all things that begin to cross your mind. Behind you is quickly becoming the days of trekking across campus for class and the nights of finding the next party. In front of you lies your career, the dreaded days of worrying about bills and oh my gosh I’m an adult now and soon I’ll be getting married and having kids (Not Everyone).
Where did the time go? What happened to the best friends I met on move-in day and all the super sweet (drunk) girls I met in the bathroom?
It’s amazing to look back and see how far you have come, how you have changed, how others have changed. It’s all so unreal, the memories are full of great joy, a lot of laughter, a heap of stress, and some pain mixed in every now and then.
There are people I used to see and speak to every day, sometimes within every hour and now, I can’t even remember the last time I spoke to them, let alone saw them.
There are some people that I was angry with, hurt by, changed by and made better by. I’m jealous of those people that go to college and have the same friends the entire time and will live forever still friends with them. I, unfortunately, was not one of those. I made a lot of friends, but they came and went. Those I was closest with? Well…I’m not sure what happened. It’s sad to think about. I was angry about it for a long time, because it’s like we all blame each other for the falling out.
I look at it now and realize…there wasn’t much we could have done. We all changed, we grew apart. I hate to admit it, but it hurts to think about it. I really never understood why it happened the way it did.
It was truly a confusing situation and if I was wrong, well, if you’re reading this, I apologize. Maybe it was all miscommunication, but I have a feeling that it was much more than that even if none of us would openly admit it.
If you attended college and didn’t have your life altered in some way, I’m not sure you’re doing it right, or you’re taking a few victory laps because you’re not ready to learn the lessons it was meant to teach you.
I can’t even begin to explain the countless lessons I learned from college, from friendship and relationships to people in general and the world of business.
I’ve grown in ways I never could have imagined, met people I am so thankful for, and learned a lot about myself. It can be humbling sometimes. I don’t always look back and like who I was, but I am thankful having gone through all of it.
To the people I came to know throughout college:
We may not be friends anymore, we may not talk anymore, but I hope y’all are doing great. I hope the best for all of you and I just want to thank you for all of the hilarious, amazing, sometimes not so great times we all had together. It was a good run. We all made a lot of memories. I hope all of you go on to have successful lives with a whole lot of love and fun (and because I love travel, I hope that for you too).
There are so many things I’m going to miss, so many memories from the years spent on campus until 2 am studying for a test I just want to pass, at cringe worthy frat parties that I’m ashamed to admit I don’t always remember everything from, exhilarating football games that left me proud to be a Red Raider, and the people I grew to know, to love, and sadly sometimes to only remember.
On this day, before I start my final semester, I am excited/terrified of the new phases of life, to enter the dreaded adult world because you know what I’ve realized? With the right person, with the right job, the right guidance, and a whole lot of faith…life is actually very amazing and will be as fun and memorable as you wish to make it.
I’ve been to some cool places, went on a mission trip, gotten over my fear of kids, gotten two dogs, and been taught a lot of things. I’m beyond blessed and so so thankful and to think this is just the beginning. God is so good.
To my family: Well I love y’all and am so thankful to have you guys. I know y’all are scared of my love for travel, but it’ll be okay.
To Texas Tech: Thanks for the memories. This semester is going to go by so fast and it’s going to be a semester full of gratitude and anxious/excited nerves dancing at my fingertips, aching to touch the rest of the world.
It’s a scary thing, diving headfirst into things that you are passionate about and love dearly, but it reminds me of the saying:
“What if I fall?”
“Oh, but my darling, what if you fly?”
Go fly folks and with that, I’ll be signing off for now. Don’t worry, I’ll come talk about my graduation day and all of the wonderful memories in between and the amazing plans for the future soon after.